Longings

I have been rereading Hugh Nibley’s The Ancient State. In the second section Tenting, Toll and Taxing it brings me some sense of satisfaction in my perpetual feelings…knowing it is human nature i.e. All my life I have had the sense that, no matter where I am or what I am doing, I should be somewhere else and doing something else. For example when I am at home doing one thing I have a very strong urging to get out and go somewhere else and do something different yet when I get to the place I have decided to go to, to appease that urge I get another strong urge go somewhere else, and not necessarily somewhere specific. It seems that this yearning in me is stronger now that I am older though perhaps I don’t remember just how pulling that yearning was in the past, do to the fact that the “hear and now” is overshadowing the past. I am reminded by Nibley that we are strangers here and have an innate longing for a long lost home. Long drives, especially in the mountains to a degree bring an easy to my suffering but only to a degree!

"I went pee pee on the potty - EEEEE

Three or four times in the last couple of days, our two-year-old granddaughter Alexa called from Queen Creek, Arizona; with the assistance of her mother,Niki,and announced with a loud happy voice, “I went pee-pee in the potty” and jabbered on about other stuff, some unintelligible. She has to tell me and “Grandma.” After telling me, she yells out a loud “EEEEE” or however you spell a loud funny yell. She expects me to “EEEEE” back to her. She laughs when I do. It is something I taught her on one of my trips to Arizona to visit them.