SCARY

"I DID not make this up....................I'm merely passing it along!

25% of women in this country are on medication for mental illness!That’s scary as hell, because it means 75% are running around with no medication at all."

RIP...Oups

Monday, October 29, 2012
Today I drove to Provo Town Centre Mall to check out my new favorite bookstore. It is on the upper level of the mall near Dillard’s. I can’t remember the name of the bookstore but it is run by a high priest. In fact he taught the lesson in Priesthood Meeting yesterday. he has a lot of good deep-thinking type books including the ones I bought while back and today. The last one is Spiritual Vision by Cohan and Cohan. The first Cohan was a Jewish rabbi who converted to the LDS Church while serving as a dentist in Korea during the war. The one I bought today, God’s Covenant Race was written by or a compilation of church talks by James H. Anderson the second edition was printed in 1938. He was called as a member of the General Board of the Young Men’s Mutual Improvement Association in 1907. He was born in Salt Lake City 11 February 1857.
The book is pretty deep…the kind I like. I am just getting started…we shall see.

The reason I started this entry; before I got distracted is to tell you I got a text from Corey while I was in the mall. It reads, “You should come out to JC Penney and buy me some new jeans since I just ripped the butt out of mine and don’t have any money to buy myself some.”

When I was deciding to go to the mall, I was thinking I should go to Southtowne Mall but I decided to go to the other one instead because that is where my book store is. I texted him back and told him I was on my way. The “RIP” (rest in peace?) was huge, maybe eight inches long.

CATCHING UP

Sunday, October 28, 2012
Judy has been in Minneapolis for a week or so being with her mother Bev while she is in he hospital. She had a disc that they worked on because leg problems; collapsing etc. today supposedly the were to a CAT Scan on her brain to see there are problems because some of if not all her symptoms are still manifesting themselves. She is wearing a catheter and hasn’t had a bowl movement the last I heard. The last I heard they are going to put her in a facility where they will help her get up and around and with any other needs.
At that point Judy will come at least for a while. She is hoping that will be tomorrow; Monday.
I have been spending a lot of time with Corey and family. We had lunch together Friday (?) at Joy Luck or Sum Dum Luc as I call it. Last night Corey and Stacey went on a date. I don’t remember the name, but it sounded like a lot of violence. Jayden and Bailey stayed over a my house while they were at the movie. The intent was that they would sleep over.
We watched funny You Tube movies for a long time laughing. At first it was funny cats like cats falling in the water and running away. One cat climbed into a small garble ball; stuff like that. It went from cats to dogs or cats starring down dogs and the like. Finally I put in ear plugs and a mask over my eyes and fell asleep. When I woke up it was dark and quiet. The kids had gone to bed in the small bedroom.

After while Bailey came into my bedroom and asked if she could sleep with me…she said that “Jaden won’t stop talking.”

Jay said that he would sleep for a few minutes and then wake up…over and over again.

After their movie was over, Stacey texted Jayden to see how they were doing. Jayden said that he couldn’t sleep. She asked him if he wanted to go home. He said yes so then swung by our house and got the kids and took them home.

Today Bailey was supposed to say a part in the Primary Sacrament Meeting today. She was well prepared though she hadn’t gone to any of the practices. This morning Corey was hoarse and generally feeling bad so none of them went to church. Good thing they told me so I wouldn’t drive up there for nothing. I got dressed and was to our church in time for choir practice. It turned out that my bedroom clock was an hour show. It is old and programmed to change time automatically for Day Light Saving Time each spring and fall. The problem is that they decided to make daylight saving to last longer in the fall and start sooner in the spring.

I got to church fifteen minutes after the meeting had started. I got the water but not the bread. The choir sang after the first speaker; Scott Johnson of the bishopric. At that time the choir sang. Even though I had been to no practices and had never seen the music I went up and joined them. The music was easy and I had no problem with it. In the last couple of years or so I have gotten to where I have no problem finding the bass notes and usually the tenor. I sometimes can sing with the altos with my falsetto. After the choir, Bishop Hanson spoke and was followed by Brother Gonzales who is in the high counsel and from our ward. He is quite the wit. They are from a small city (I think) in Argentina and he was made a bishop when he was very young. He said that his ward was very poor and that he made the people promise to pay a full tithing and told them that if they needed help after paying their tithing they would give then whatever assistance they needed. They all accepted the challenge and none of them ever came back for assistance.
As a side note; I was speaking with his wife a few weeks back and said something about her husband’s sense of humor. She laughed and said that when they were dating, she almost didn’t marry him because he was too funny.
He is a super funny-nice and their three sons are just like him.
Tonight Jayden invited me to their house for dinner at seven. Corey made an excellent white bean and chicken chili. It was excellent and I brought some of the leftovers home with me.
Bailey and I played catch with a 5-6 inch orange soft plastic ball. After that Bailey got Corey’s i-pad (probably a different brand) and we played games and such on a Disneyland app. When I was getting ready to leave for home, Bailey said “It’s so much fun when Grandpa comes over!”

I was—flattered of course.

HELL; THE INCAPACITY TO LOVE

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The Gospel of Thomas reads: ‘‘The disciples said to him, ‘When will the kingdom come?’ Jesus said, It will not come by looking for it. It will not be a matter of saying here it is, or there it is. Rather, the Kingdom of the Father is spread out upon the earth, and people do not see it.’’ Koester notes that ‘‘Thomas sees this coming of the kingdom primarily as an event that takes place as the disciples gain a new understanding of themselves.’’

In this respect, the Gnostic view and understanding would be similar to what Jean-Yves LeLoup has written concerning this parallel with saying 113 and Luke. ‘‘ It is a matter not of searching here or there for some special manifestation, but of opening our eyes to what is already before us, here and now and caring for all that is. Yet one place where God is prevented from manifesting is in the heart that is closed to love, the heart that refuses forgiveness and revels in bitterness. Hell is truly the incapacity to love. Another place from which God is banished is the intellect that closes itself off from the light of its source.

SNOW WHITE and The SEVEN DWARFS; and Other True Stories

To start with; some people believe that after his resurrection, Jesus visited a lot of different peoples on this planet and established his church including the Celtic peoples. Some historians have shown that their ceremonies reflect what has been discovered about the rituals the original Christians practiced in and for a while after Christ earthly ministry. When others invaded their lands years later, the true Christian beliefs and rites had either been altered or lost completely and the invaders assumed the Celts (and others of that time period,) were practicing pagan beliefs and ceremonies. Thus the following:

Joseph Neil Fairbanks

I sometimes wonder at the light and knowledge we have lost because of our own intransigience, ignorance and disobedience. I utilize the example of the children's fairy tale of "Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs". Clearly a Kabbalic tale, one of the Celtic verities told as a parable to preserve its meaning against the persecutions of the self-righteous and the religiously intolerant, not to mention the wiles of the adversary (Satan). Clearly Kabbalic, you say? Indeed. Snow White, the virgin spirit sent forth from her Father's realm (Heaven) finds herself trapped in the fallen physical world, where she is taught, nurtured by seven dwarfs. Seven Dwarfs, the Seven Spheres below the veil...miners because they dig up truth in this dark and dreary world of Assiah (see the (Kabbalic) tree of Life diagram below). Along comes the serpent, ummm, I mean evil step-mother, and tempts her with the fruit of the tree of the science (knowledge) of good and evil, which she consumes, and in that day "surely" dies ["surely" is an aphorism for "spiritually", the whole statement being "In the day thou partakest thereof, thou shalt surely die." By understanding the aphorism, we resolve the paradox, remove the distortion and see that we do not have to stretch to know that God is not a liar]. Hmmm. I think I have read this story before! So the omniscient father sends forth his true prince to overcome the serpent, and cast it into the abyss, and rescue the virgin called Ziyon. The parallels are so clear as to defy logic in a tale meant to hide the story from the religious inquisitors. Yet I daresay that almost no one considers this tale to be of eternal worth. I do not want to get into a full-blown discussion of philosophy, or literary theory, but some of their modern statements are apropos here. The chief point of most discourse: obfuscation. Jacques Derrida posits it thusly: "A text is not a text unless it hides from the first comer, from the first glance, the laws of its composition and the rules of its game." Jacques Lacan further notes: "One of the prime functions of speech . . . is not to reveal thoughts, but to conceal them, especially from ourselves." (Things should always be read with the Spirit/Holy Ghost)my insertion!

·                     The myth is the foundation of life; it is the timeless schema, the pious formula into which life flows when it reproduces its traits out of the unconscious. Certainly when a writer has acquired the habit of regarding life as mythical and typical there comes a curious heightening of his artistic temper, a new refreshment to his perceiving and shaping powers. --Thomas Mann

Beneath the hierarchy of communication there lies a mythological foundation that antecedes the communication and from which flows its primal, creative energies. Organizations will generally propagate a conscious myth to justify their entrance into the social scene. In addition to the conscious myth there are subconscious myths that usually are not even evident to the founders. It seems to be common that we can see the mythological basis for religious beliefs, and additionally see the utilization of those myths in religious organizations, but for some reason, we have difficulty seeing the same mythological basis for the organization of religion, or for other organizations in society. Adrian Cunningham introduces the subject as a topic which not only occupies a central role in the study of religion but which, especially under the impact of the work of Levi-Strauss, has provided a focus for methodological debate in various sciences, and raised, at least for response, the possibility of a unification of sciences, centered on the study of communication and meaning as the central human fact, rendering problematic many accepted procedures of description, objectivity and explanation.

 
From a definitional standpoint, one finds oneself in a quandary to define myth because of its elusively. Many people subscribe to the notion that myth is simply stories that are not true. Myths are constructs related to the subconscious, the unconscious and the conscious interpretation of society, usually beginning at the body, and its extension into the physical world. In many modern secular and religious circles, myths are seen as having no relationship to reality. Most people find their own myths to be "reality," and those of others to be false. I find myself constrained to accept Claude Levi-Strauss's definition of myth as "consisting of all its versions." ...

UPDATE

Sunday, October 21, 2012
                Jayden is texting Skyler (sp) now that he and Kate broke up or rather since Kate broke up with him. Skyler is supposedly “dating” Jayden’s friend Gage. (I still suspicion that Kate will be back though I don’t know if Jayden’s pride will allow it or if he will be strong for someone else or whatever. I also wonder if Kate’s parents insisted she break up with Jayden, though Jayden said it was for another boy.)
                Today in sacrament meeting, Jayden was the youth speaker. He did a really good job albeit he read most of it. He said that he wasn’t asked until Friday (in the evening I assume) and we were busy with other family things yesterday including going to Bailey’s swim meet.
                Jayden showed no fear. He was calm and collected, smiled and looked at the congregation as much as he could. He was the one who apologized to me about having to read most of it.
I think we have all, including Bailey, decided we don’t like swim meets. It is mostly wait and wait and wait and swim eight laps and then wait and wait and wait then swim another eight laps then go home.
                After she finally got to swim the first event; the breast stroke, the one she hates the most unless it is the butterfly; we all went to lunch. We ended up at the Pizza Pie Cafe at the bottom of the hill below the University Mall not far from Lavell Edwards Stadium (BYU Stadium). It has a very good Italian buffet.
                Grandpa Wayne (Bingham) was there. He is really good to support his grandchildren and I suppose that since he lost his wife Ginnie to cancer it gives him something to do on Saturdays. I ask him about what he does to occupy his time and he said that he does a lot of yard work.
                Bailey decided she didn’t want to swim the last event and we finally went back to the Provo Recreation Center pool and got her stuff.
                When she did swim her first event (only event) it turned into a joke. She had broken her good goggles so she put on her other pair. Somehow that pair got lost and she put on a third pair that didn’t fit right. They were too loose. (I think Stacey bought the third pair at the concession stand.) Also Bailey wouldn’t dive off the platform like everyone else; she just dove off the end of the pool.
                Almost immediately after she dove in, her goggles fell off of her eyes so she stopped and put them back on. A couple of strokes later they fell off again and again she stopped and put them back on. Also I don’t think she thought of it as a race and swam like she does in practice pacing herself. At one spot she turned her head to the side and was looking at the people standing on the side of the pool.
                When she finally got to the end of her second-to-the-last lap and turned around, everyone else was done and hanging onto the end of the pool waiting for her to show up. For me (Fred) at least, it seemed that that last lap would last forever.

Here is Jayden’s talk:
“Hi. My name is Jayden Jepson and I have been asked to talk about Go Forward with Faith. Like Elder Norman I hope to be a full time Missionary some day, however I can prepare myself until that time comes.

“In Alma chapter 37, verse 6 it reads (READ THE SCRIPTURE)… [6 Now ye may suppose that this is ^afoolishness in me; but behold I say unto you, that by ^bsmall and simple things are great things brought to pass; and small means in many instances doth confound the wise.]
“What Alma is teaching us is that no matter how small the things we do to prepare ourselves now, they can prepare us for great things later in life.
“What are some of the things we can do to prepare ourselves for our missions and other callings in life?
“First, we can kneel each morning and night in prayer to our Father in Heaven. Thank him for the blessings we have received and ask him for the things we desire. He is the source of all wisdom. He will hear and answer our prayers.
“Second, we need to study the scriptures each day and apply what we read to our lives. The scriptures are a powerful source of personal revelation and guidance and a constant strength to help us build our testimony.
“Third, we need to try to be obedient. We need to remember and live by the covenants that we made and that we have the opportunity to renew each week when we take the sacrament. Try to keep these covenants. If we make a mistake, don’t give up. Our Heavenly Father loves us and wants us to seek His help and keep trying.
“Fourth, when possible, we need to attend the temple and feel the joy and peace that doing so gives us.
“Fifth, we need to follow the teachings of the prophets, the other authorities of the Church, and our local leaders.
“Sixth, we need to be humble and willing to listen to the Holy Ghost and respond to His promptings. The Lord is wiser than we are and will not lead us in the wrong direction.
“When we do these things, the Lord will make much more out of our lives than we could by ourselves. He will increase our opportunities to grow and strengthen us. He will give us the help we need to handle any trials and challenges we may face in life. We will gain a stronger testimony and find true joy as we come to know our Father in Heaven and His Son, Jesus Christ, and feel Their love for us. I know these things to be true and I share them with you in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.”

                Corey said they got a lot of it out of one of the church pamphlets. He didn’t say which one.

WINGERS

Wednesday, October 17, 2012
                Tonight Judy and I met Niki, Alexa, Gavin and Gracie at Wingers on 136^th and Bangerter for dinner. Niki’s three especially Alexa and Gavin were their usual noisy silly selves.
                When it came time to order dinner Niki started to tell the waitress what Alexa wanted. Alexa shouted out, “I want to tell her” and repeated “I want a grilled cheese sandwich.” Audrey, our waitress was very cute about addressing Alexa and repeating back, “You want a grilled cheese sandwich.”
                A little later, Niki called her friend Gail whose birthday is near Christmas so everyone calls her, Noel. Alexa asked her mom, “Who are you calling?” to which Niki replied, “Saint Nick,”
                Alexa didn’t hear her well and asked in a loud voice; “Satin; your calling Satin?”
                We all got a good laugh over that one.
                That reminded Niki about a conversation she had with Gavin the other day in the car. She asked him, “Are you going to go on a mission?” or maybe it was, “Where do you want to go on a mission.”
 He started bawling, “I don’t want to go on a mission.” Niki asked him why he didn’t want to go on a mission and he said; because when I get home I’ll have to get married and I don’t want to get married.”
                Niki said he repeated it over and over again; “I don’t want to go on a mission because I don’t want to get married.”
                Tonight at dinner she asked him again and got the same response. She asked him what he wanted to do; “Stay home and live with us?” to which he laid his head on her shoulder and said, “Yes, I want to stay with you.”
                For a long time Gavin and I have been playing the game of me saying I am Gavin and him saying he is Grandpa. I brought it up again tonight to which he said; “I don’t want to play that anymore.”
                Gavin is three and Alexa is six.